Today is the 1 year anniversary of my Dad's death. It still hurts...I still cry...I still long to hear his voice on the other line when he would call me almost everyday...I still long to hear his words of wisdom when I would go to him with a problem...I still miss his big bear hugs...I still miss...him. There are moments that it feels like he has been gone forever, yet I can hardly believe that it has already been a year. I have learned so much about myself, about the gospel, about my relationship with my Savior and my Heavenly Father, and just how close Heaven really is to us. There is no doubt that he is still actively involved(when allowed) in our family's lives. I have felt him on multiple occasions and have had the Spirit confirm that he has been allowed to be with us at certain times. I would say that over time it has gotten easier but that wouldn't be the truth…I miss him just as much today as I did a year ago. I think as members of the church we fool ourselves into believing that death should be easy and that we shouldn't feel certain steps of the mourning process because of the knowledge we have…but to me the gospel makes death manageable. I've learned that it's okay to ask why and to be angry and to go through those steps, But I have also learned that there is sweetness in our Savior's death and resurrection...through him and only him are we allowed the blessing of being reunited with our loved ones. I look forward to the day that I can throw my arms around my Dad and get one of those big bear hugs.
Love and Miss you Daddy!
A few of my favorite pics of the big guy...
Mom and Dad April 2012 dancing at their 50th Anniversary Part
My favorite scary face
Always teaching us how to work
Teaching us from the scriptures
Always willing to explain how something was done!
Always making the grandkids feel special
I will forever be his baby girl!
My parent's hands just a few hours before he passed away
The day they started their temple calling
Our last family reunion
Miss him like crazy!
8th grade graduation
Our fishing trip May 2012
Our last time to sing 'Daddy What If' with him...Father's Day 2012
Maron and her Papa have always had a special bond
Lee's Ferry May 2012
Last picture I took with Dad