Thursday, August 8, 2013

A Year Without Him...

Today is the 1 year anniversary of my Dad's death.  It still hurts...I still cry...I still long to hear his voice on the other line when he would call me almost everyday...I still long to hear his words of wisdom when I would go to him with a problem...I still miss his big bear hugs...I still miss...him.  There are moments that it feels like he has been gone forever, yet I can hardly believe that it has already been a year.  I have learned so much about myself, about the gospel, about my relationship with my Savior and my Heavenly Father, and just how close Heaven really is to us.  There is no doubt that he is still actively involved(when allowed) in our family's lives.  I have felt him on multiple occasions and have had the Spirit confirm that he has been allowed to be with us at certain times.  I would say that over time it has gotten easier but that wouldn't be the truth…I miss him just as much today as I did a year ago.  I think as members of the church we fool ourselves into believing that death should be easy and that we shouldn't feel certain steps of the mourning process because of the knowledge we have…but to me the gospel makes death manageable.  I've learned that it's okay to ask why and to be angry and to go through those steps, But I have also learned that there is sweetness in our Savior's death and resurrection...through him and only him are we allowed the blessing of being reunited with our loved ones.  I look forward to the day that I can throw my arms around my Dad and get one of those big bear hugs.    

 Love and Miss you Daddy!

A few of my favorite pics of the big guy...
 Mom and Dad April 2012 dancing at their 50th Anniversary Part
 My favorite scary face
 Always teaching us how to work
 Teaching us from the scriptures
 Always willing to explain how something was done!
 Always making the grandkids feel special
 I will forever be his baby girl!
 My parent's hands just a few hours before he passed away
 The day they started their temple calling
 Our last family reunion
 My hero
 Miss him like crazy!
 8th grade graduation
 Christmas 2011
 Our fishing trip May 2012
 Our last time to sing 'Daddy What If' with him...Father's Day 2012
 Maron and her Papa have always had a special bond
 Lee's Ferry May 2012
Last picture I took with Dad


Summer Haws said...

I love this post! Seeing all these pictures shows the many different ways he has blessed your life and the lives of many. He was an extraordinary man! Love and miss ya Tiff!

cturley said...

What a great man your dad was. I know how you feel tomorrow will be 6 years for me. Hang in there. Love us :)

debrajo said...

This one made me cry! I love you!

I'm sure he loves & misses you as much as you love & miss him! It will be a grand day when we can see our loved ones again.

Kristal said...

What a nice post. I still can't believe it's been a year. You're right, long but short at the same time. What a hellish year it's been. Sorry friend. Wish I could give you a hug right now.

FerraroFam said...

Your dad was such a great man, one of the greatest. Can't believe it's been a year, miss that guy. Sorry he is no longer here in person, but he is definitely here in spirit and always will be. Love all the pictures. (((Hugs)))