I know that life is ALWAYS full of adjustments! Can you imagine how boring life would be if we didn't have adjustments, challenges, and trials?? I know that I don't have any more adjustments in life than anyone else, but over the past few months I feel like I've had my share.
It has been an adjustment losing my Dad. I miss him. I miss being able to just pick up the phone and get his Fatherly advice that I need SO much! It's hard to believe it's been just shy of 6 months since he has been gone. It seems like it has gone fast, yet it seems as if I haven't heard his voice, squeezed his neck, or gotten in one of our father/daughter disputes in eons. I often find myself asking myself, 'how would Dad handle this?' or 'what would Dad say about this?' I am grateful for the Tender Mercies where I have felt him and known he was near since his passing!
It has been an adjustment getting use to a new Mom. I have often felt the easier part was losing my Dad. Adjusting to a Mother who is just not the same without my Dad here, not that I blame her at all, has been the harder part. I miss the Mom I use to be able to talk to for hours, get her advice, and rely on so much for extra help in so many ways. I love her and pray that she can work through her grieving process sooner than later and that I can know how to help her.
It has been an adjustment having Brandon working full time again. He started a new job back in September. Don't get me wrong...we have been extremely blessed getting this job with Caffall Tile, but it would be different if it was a job that allowed him to only be gone 10 hours a day, but that is not the case. Since the job is in Flagstaff, the nights that he does come home he leaves at 3:30am and gets home around 7:00pm. So YES it has been a massive Adjustment to be, what I feel, a single mom of 12. I've learned that I take him for granted on so many levels! Things like taking the seats in and out of the big van, building a fire, making dinner, helping bathe kids, dealing with our mobile home park, changing out light bulbs, gathering us together for family prayer, and just being here to kiss me goodnight. One of the biggest adjustments of having him gone is him not being here to watch the kids while I get my exercise, which I long for!!! Never thought I would miss running so much:) Exercising on the eliptical just doesn't do the trick when I can still hear the kids fighting!!:)
AND until these Adjustments stop coming I guess I will just continue to put on my big girl panties and enjoy the ride. Through all of life's Adjustments I am so grateful I have loving Heavenly Father who never fails to pull me through each hard moment.
